I can barely contain my excitement as I look ahead to the new year. 2015 will be filled with some pretty big changes for me, with college graduation and embarking on the world race being the highlights. Going into the new year I’ve joined millions of others by making a few resolutions. One of my resolutions is to pray for my future husband. I know it sounds silly, especially because I don’t even know if I’ll ever get married, but I’m feeling like it’s something that I should be doing. So here’s to you mystery man!
Dear Future Husband,
It’s kind of super awkward writing a letter to someone you do not yet know, but life is better when you’re weird, right? (If your answer to this question is no then I know there’s no way you’re my future spouse.) I don’t know whether to begin this letter by congratulating you for surviving my weird quirks thus far or apologizing for having to deal with me for the rest of our lives. I guess the place to begin is letting you know that unlike most girls my age, I’m not overly anxious to find you. Okay, that’s a lie…sort of.
Part of me can’t wait to meet you and fall in love with you and just do life with my best friend. But the other part of me is down right terrified. I’m afraid that I will never be good enough or won’t measure up to the dream girl that you’ve fanaticized about for forever.
The truth is, me and the big guy up there have a pretty good thing going on right now. Day after day I’m learning to trust, love, and serve Him with all that I am and have. His goodness truly fills me with joy and His faithfulness to me continually blows my mind. I can’t imagine a greater love, but I guess that’s why husbands and wives love each other second to God.
I hope you know I’m waiting for you. My heart and time are no longer wasted on men who don’t look anything like you. My tears have been dried from past mistakes and my heart has been healed by His grace.
I hope you know that I’m thankful for you. I’m thankful for the man that God is making you and for this time that we get to grow individually so that one day we can grow in Him together.
I hope you know I don’t expect the world. I hope you know that all I desire is for you to love Jesus and strive to do right and seek His will while loving me the best that you can.
I hope you want a bulldog. Because I really, really want to have a bulldog at some point in my life. I hope you love adventuring, being active, discovering new places and trying new things. I hope you have a heart for others and show kindness to everyone you meet. I hope you like food sans gluten, dairy, and eggs or will at least try it once in awhile. I hope you’re a complete goofball seeking a life full of laughter but can be serious sometimes too. I hope you like random off-key singing and terrible dancing because they comprise a solid portion of my daily activities. I hope you’re predictably unpredictable; uncomfortable with monotony. I hope that when the time is right you want a house filled with kids. I hope you have a black and white view of the world to challenge the way I see shades of gray.
When the clock strikes 12 on New Years in that awkward moment when everyone grabs someone to kiss, I hope you know I’m thinking about you. When you’re having a bad day, I hope you know that I am already praying for you.
I pray for abundant blessings over your life. I pray that you’re a humanitarian with a love for others that is genuine and strong. I pray that you’re given wisdom and are directed along the right path.
Hopefully that path leads you to me soon-ish. I can’t wait to meet you, but until then I’ll keep praying for you.
You have my heart always,
Malorie Joy
