Since the beginning of the race, a theme or rather heart prayer of mine has been, “To believe more of who God says He is-” believing more of what His word (the Bible) says He is, believing more of who the Holy spirit reveals to me He is and ultimately trusting that of Him.”
It has been a process and like most things it has taken time but fortunately my prayer is being answered.
The truth is I have walked through some valley lows- really low valley’s.
Valley’s of depression, valley’s of despair, valley’s of intense loneliness,
valley’s of hopelessness. I have lived under a canopy of guilt, shame, and resentment. Seasons of loss.
In my heart, I have had a deep mistrust in the goodness of God.
Often wrestling in the reality that our God gives and takes.
That our God does allow sorrow and suffering, that He allows His children to endure pain, loss, and hardship.
But in working through the deep trust issues I have with the Father, a thin cord of hope has been connected- His heart to mine- drawing me closer to His true heart and goodness.
In that strand of hope, I have found [and actually truly have to begun to believe] that no matter where I find myself- valley low, loss, infirmity, trial, or pain- I walk in a story of redemption that is only made possible through the way of Jesus Christ and there IS joy in that truth.
Jesus’ story is a story of redemption.
Jesus’ story doesn’t end with death.
Jesus’ story does not end in defeat or despair.
Just as my God walked this earth and lived out a story of healing, hope and love;
so my story will be.
I am walking in fuller freedom and greater trust in His goodness today- believing that no matter what I endure or what may come-
He saves and redeems.
He's got me, He's got me good.
Now do you believe it too, truly?
