This is a blog I wrote about ten days ago while I was still in the middle of ministry with no wifi. Lots has happened since, but this is a glimpse of where I was on May 19th.
Me and my team are in our last city of our Pup ’n Sud Teaching Tour 2016. We’re all still tired and things are a bit dusty here in Apolo, but we’re making it through. Despite our travel days and general lack of knowledge of what we’re doing until we’re doing it, things are going well. We’ve been able to go to churches and encourage people by telling them about grace and doing lessons on how to teach Sunday school.
Right now I’m in a time in between starting a lesson and knowing it. Let me preface by saying I know this is a lesson I’ll be learning over and over again so I don’t plan on grasping it by the end of this blog. I’m learning more about dependence on God right now.
And it’s one of those real life lessons where you get to learn it by having to depend on God. Not always the most fun. Most of the time people get here when they’re at the end of themselves. I’m not quite there, but I’m probably close. Every part of me is looking for comfort. I want to eat all the things or put my headphones in go to a different planet. Instead I’m choosing to take those more self indulgent thoughts captive and go to the Lord with them. Ask Him why I’m looking for comfort. Let Him show me where my discomfort is and where He is in that.
Basically things are still hard and I’m oddly okay with it. It’s like when you hit the middle of a long run. The things that demands most of your attention is the stitch in your side and the sweat hitting all the wrong spots. But you keep going because you know it’s good for you and that your side will eventually stop screaming at you.
I wish I had a bow to tie on this lesson. I’m not there yet though. God keeps telling me to sink into Him and that’s what I’ll keep doing.
