It was two days before training camp and I found myself starring at my celling, pitch black since it was about 2 am. I started to doubt everything, everyone and yes even God. Did He really call me to this; Is my family going to be okay; Am I going to be okay; The same Saturday I would have to be on my way to ATL, Georgia(where I would meet everyone for training camp) was the same day of my youth ministries youth retreat and I already found myself disconnected from a life I thought I wouldn’t have to leave behind until launch in January. Two days into training camp I had it. I asked God to figure out how I could go home. He won, this whole missionary trip had birth from a desire in my heart and not the purpose He payed out for me so I thought.It wasn’t long after that a young lady approached me and told me all God had revealed to her on my behalf. I began to weep and it was then I knew this wasn’t just an 11 country 11month missionary trip, but the start of the journey God had ordained for me since before I was even in my mothers womb.I’m not going to lie or say it got easier after that. I was stretched and challenged but I was finally broken. I was broken out of my comfort zone and was restored with boldness. I found myself praying out loud over the other squads, praying out loud around a major prayer camp fire session and even dancing around with a scarf in front of everyone! This is just training camp and I’m so excited to see what God has in store for me and I can wait until I can experience what He sees in the overall big picture of my life.But seriously though, how good is God!
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