Thus far my blogs have been more about what I’m learning and asking my readers to consider it in their own life. This three-part blog is different. Brace yourself. I’m fixing to get real with you. Take a deep breath and try to follow me.
DISCLAIMER>> I’m writing from my thoughts for fluidity and not from my college degree of correctness.
**The Resurrection:
Just like Jesus moved a humongous boulder from His own grave, our team moved a humongous boulder from our feedbacks. That boulder’s name was Uncomfortable. It only took one of us to speak up with a stern, frustrated, and determined mindset to begin the process of rolling back and pushing through. It’s not comfortable to bring up your insecurities. It’s not comfortable to shine light on your struggles. It’s not comfortable to share victories when no one knew you were fighting. It’s not comfortable to reveal personal convictions. But we did it. Did we let everything out we’d been holding in? No. Not even close. Did we start rolling back the boulder keeping us all trapped together in darkness? Absolutely! It sucked that it took so long to start rolling back that stone, but I thank God that it happened. Now in debrief, we can say that we’ve at least taken one step in the direction God wanted for our team. One step or a million – you’re still moving forward. Avanti.
Laying here on a soft, clean bed at debrief reunited with my squad mates has been a refreshing breath. Much like when the disciples saw Jesus for the first time after His death and burial. As I verbally processed with a squad mate outside my team, I started to realize how much God used the past three months to teach me about Himself. And the things I need to change about me.
Although my team was a sisterhood of the Kingdom, it still wasn’t okay for me to lean on them the most for my love, support, feedback, etc. That’s my Father’s job! Although this race requires a lot of checklist actions, it still wasn’t okay for me to skip daily quiet time and worship.
God is SO GOOD! His love is UNRELENTING! And through that, my team has pushed through uncomfortable vulnerability, and I have learned how much I should rely solely on Him. The one who saved me on the cross. The one who is risen and saves me every day.
THANK GOD FOR WHO HE IS! I’m so stoked to spend the next couple days with my FAMILY – team and squad mates – soaking in the presence of the Holy Spirit before flying off to our next three months. This amazing feeling can’t possibly compare to what it was like when the twelve disciples saw Jesus for the first time after His death, but man. . .this feeling sets a high standard!
