Daddy God you see my heart. You see what a hot mess I am right now. I have no doubt in the world that you are my provider, that you want to shower your children with love and blessings. And I know that your are bigger than any number and any struggle. Lord I feel like the odds are against me.I feel the hope and faith slipping away. I have two days. Two more days for you to miraculously put $2800 in my account. And you know Its not just the deadline. What about the rest of my gear? I have $0 money to bring with me on this trip. What about my student loans? Nothing has come together like I had anticipated. Why so many hurdles? Why is this so hard? I don’t get it. I sent out the letters, I had the fundraisers, I shared my heart so much that I feel like I don’t have anything left, I prayed, I fasted. I know that this is your will. I know you have called me to this. You have given me revelation about this trip and have showed me visions of me and the people over seas. Others have prophesied over my life the nations and missions long before I even knew what the world race was. When you made me you put this desire in my heart for the world,for people I have never even met. God I don’t know what the outcome is going to be. But what ever it is I put my trust in you. You have never let me down. You have always worked things out way better than I ever could. You are the love of my life, my purpose, my creator, my calm waters, my strong towers and what ever your will is Lord I trust you.
