You never know what you’re going to encounter. Things can be going so well one minute, and the next you are faced with a struggle that seems like it will overwhelm you. This has been the story of my life since training camp. I was feeling great after camp. I had finally met my squad, I’d been placed on my team, I’d grown with Christ in ways I didn’t even know I needed to grow. Then I got home and the attacks began. Things began to fall apart at work and I wasn’t enjoying going in every day anymore. I lost a bit of my passion for working with my kids and spending time with my family. For the first time I recognized the spiritual warfare going on in my life. Instead of brushing off the anger and heartache as annoying coincidences (like the fact that this was all occurring right before the Race), I turned to God. Did I turn to Him every single time I was struggling? Unfortunately, no. But the more pain came my way, the more He taught me how to turn to Him, and most importantly, why to turn to Him. I keep telling myself that all these problems I am having right now are horribly timed. But God has shown me through this all that it’s the perfect time. He is teaching me step by step, day by day, to lean on Him for everything I am and everything I need. I feel prepared for the field. My Savior has been working in my life to show me how much He loves me and how badly He wants to use me on the World Race, and after. God has shown me the power of His preservation. He sustains us in our time of need. He provides us with the emotional stamina, the mental fortitude, and the spiritual power to conquer our struggles. Christ is the ultimate conqueror. He has already won every battle for us and through his blood we have freedom. Why turn to Jesus? He fills us to measure with himself. By His grace I have experienced this.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
I can’t depend on myself because without Christ I am nothing. Christ is everything. God has brought me to this point. I am broken, and in my brokenness, I have been set free.
“In my anguish I cried to the Lord and he answered by setting me free.” Psalm 118:5
