i remember the phone call. i remember the excitement. i remember the prayer.
the night before i got accepted to the world race, i remember praying to the Lord that i believed in His call for me to go on this mission. i believed in what He spoke to me. i asked Him to close the door, reject my application, do anything to keep me from going if this wasn’t what He wanted for me. i remember pleading with him that if, in fact, it WAS where i was supposed to go, that He would make it crystal clear. that i would be accepted, and have peace that this was for me. the very next day, i got the call. He said to me “GO” i was overwhelmed with excitement, joy, and peace that this was my purpose. to serve the Lord and His people across the world. to become intimate with my Father, in the deepest way possible… to strip away my identity as i know it, and to build a foundation of Christ in my heart. to make HIM my identity. to discipline myself, to challenge myself. to grow. to change.
in the past two or three months i have been shaken. tested. a test of FAITH. will i remember His promise to me? will i cling to His Truth? or will i let confusion, doubt, and fear defeat me? NO NO NO. for two weeks now, the Lord is teaching me the HE alone is the one that will do this. HE will glorify Himself by providing the money. HE alone will be with me. HE alone will comfort me. HE will send me. He will heal those who i will meet. He will use me, only when i realize that i cannot do this in my own strength. that only when i call upon him will He answer me. it all comes down to Faith. I MUST BELIEVE what he has told me. I MUST believe that He wants to answer my cry.
so… my status is: GO! i know i have been M.I.A on blogs, and have often been wishy washy when asked if i am still going on this mission trip. but i am firm in my belief that the Lord is doing this. i am not. I cannot raise this money. i cannot prepare. i cannot change the world. i am going, filled with the Spirit, grounded and rooted in love, and walking alongside Jesus to 11 countries… where i don’t know what is going to happen, but [fact] I AM GOING. i believe in this.
i ask nothing of you but to pray. pray for my team, who i believe is going to be an explosion to the people we meet. pray for the countries.. that the people’s heart’s would be open. pray for shea and i, to be united as sisters… that we may be faithful workers and encourage one another as we prepare for the greatest year of our lives. and most important, pray for His Kingdom to come. today, tomorrow, and every single day until He returns.
maranatha!
lisa
