With financial deadlines coming near, my life seems to be getting more and more stressful. Thoughts of doubts and confusion come into my head, wondering if I am really suppose to be doing this trip? How and when is the Lord going to provide? Have I done enough fundraising? What’s going to happen if I don’t raise the money I need? How is this all going to happen?
With these questions running around my head along with a grueling week of work at my new job as a swim coach, I found myself getting nervous and stressed and not knowing what to do. Though I have full confidence that the Lord will provide the funds for me to embark on this great adventure, the state of unknowing is still quite scary.
But the Lord was so faithful this week by providing people in my life to encourage me. Along with reading random encouraging blogs and having great random conversations with people that didn’t mean anything with the World Race. But the best thing was that my best friend came home from being a missionary in East Asia for the last year. It has been the longest time we have been apart and I am so so so happy that she is back home for a couple of months. She is also preparing to go back and minister for another year. We are both raising support this summer and it was so great to be able to sit down, hear about her experiences and her encourage me to trust in the Lord. She has been such a huge influence on my life and having already gone through the experience of raising support has really motivated and inspired me to trust in the Lord in all he has planned for us.
So this brings us to today. Today was a day spent stuffing support letters, writing a follow up letter and organizing gear that I have bought. Basically a day to organize what is going on and prep for another week. Well I was talking with my mom about finances, trying to strategize how to raise the money I need for this first deadline and my little sister came home and started listening to our conversation. Without asking my sister goes into her room and brings out $200 and says “here you go, it seems like you need and I’m not using it”. I was absolutely blown away and started to cry. I am not a super emotional person but this was such a sweet and amazing gesture I was just in shock. But this small but powerful gesture showed me how God can encourage us when we are down and worried. This reminds me of the verse in Matthew 6: 31-34
“ Therefore do not be anxious, saying “What shall we eat?” or “What shall we drink?” or “What shall we wear?” For the Gentiles seek after all these things and your heavenly Fahter knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
This is my beautiful little sister who inspires me to trust God and perserve everyday!
