My roommate in college (a perfectly nerdy English major) had a little piece of paper taped to her wall with three words on it. Every time I walked out of her room I saw it. It was nice, but I never really gave it much thought.
A few months ago we graduated and soon after we moved out of the house that saw us through our college years. While we were packing, I took a break and flopped down on her bed. I was just about to complain about how much work I had ahead of me.
Before I could start though, I saw the slip of paper and read it one more time. Courage Dear Heart. The incredibly simple but powerful words of C.S. Lewis washed over me.
The weight of uncertainty was more than I had expected. I was a recent grad (well still am) with zip job prospects. I had just let go of my dream opportunity and no clue why God had asked me to do it. To say that I was freaking out about my future, would be an understatement.
Courage. Have courage dear heart.
This life I’m living right now is not at all what I expected. It’s folding and shaping and taking me completely by surprise. It’s darn scary. But still God is whispering to me in my darkest moments of fear, courage.
So because I don’t know what else to do, I keep going. For me, the World Race is scary. Even though I have confidence that I’m within the Lords will, I’m still scared. I’m learning more about faith-and it’s not just happening, it takes work and some guts. I just bought my tickets to training camp. It was another step of commitment and it was scary. I’ve been calling my supporters and asking them to partner with me with a monthly donation. It’s been uncomfortable at times and intimidating.
Courage beloved, I know what I’m doing.
Right now, I’m going through a time of preparation. God is teaching me to have faith. Fundraising is a time for me to learn to trust God as the provider. These months of unemployment have taught me to allow God to lead me day by day deeper into trust with him. This season has been difficult but it’s been preparation so that when January roles around and I launch, I’ll be ready.
So courage dear hearts, God is on top of it. What he’s bringing you through might just be preparation for what's next.
