Today I was g-chatting with one of my besties, and after sharing with her that my last day of work is July 12th, she said, "You are so brave."
I said, "lol."
What else do you say when someone compliments you and you don't think it's true?
I'm brave? ME?! Miss can't-watch-scary-movies-and-screams-at-anything-creepy-crawly?
I certainly don't feel brave when I check my fundraising account a hundred times everyday to see if anyone has donated. I have an overall sense of faith and trust that all of this will come together, but my minute-to-minute faith is lacking hardcore. I feel like a 4-yr-old on a long car ride to the beach, constantly asking her parents, "Are we there yet?" I feel like every time I check my fundraising account I'm saying, "God, have you provided yet?" ….. "Ok, what about now?"
*cue anxiety*
Every time I check my account, I'm setting myself up for either extreme excitement or disappointment. But I hate that. I should rejoice EVERY TIME I check it because God has already been SO faithful. He's working. It's so evident. Yet I keep wanting to push the fast forward button and see the results in my own timing.
So… I've decided to commit to only checking my WR account on Sundays and Wednesdays. Twice a week is more than enough to keep up with Thank You notes and have a general feel for how it's going. Please pray for me! This won't be easy, but I know it will be a great way to surrender control and strengthen my faith.
Thank you SO much to everyone who has supported me thus far! I have been so blessed by each of you, and I can't thank you enough.
