Even though thousands of miles separate Jodi and I, God is still using her to teach me lessons. Today, Nikki, one of the foster moms, shared a video of Jodi walking. Even though no one has been spending daily 1-on-1 time therapy time with her right now, she is still improving. She is still taking more and more steps each day. When I left Jodi, she had only ever “decided” to walk once or twice. Mostly, she only walked because someone set her up to. But now, she walks with a purpose. If she wants to go somewhere, she crawls to the nearest thing she can use to pull her self up and then she walks.
I want to be like Jodi. I want to choose to walk and walk with a purpose. I want to be like her, fearless of falling. Jodi doesn’t let fall stop her.
Abba, I don’t want to be afraid to fall. I want to trust that you are right next to me, ready to help me back up.
If we want to be co-laborers in God’s Kingdom, we cannot be afraid to fall. The bible constantly warns us that the life of a Christ-follower is by no means easy. It warns of persecution and ridicule. It warns of attacks from the enemy. But there is also the promise of hope. Hope in Christ. Hope in all that God has promised us.
The question is, Do I trust Him? Do I trust that God’s plans are better than mine? I thought I did, but today trust wavered. Today, I hit an unexpected wall and I began to doubt what I was doing.
Do I get back up? Yes.
But, did I fall because of my flesh (because I am human and imperfect)? Or perhaps was it the Enemy trying to block my way? Or did God allow me to fall so that when He helps me back up, He can re-direct my steps to be in line with His? Maybe I was veering of course and He wanted to take the chance to put me back on the right path.
I am not quite yet sure of the answer yet, but I do know that I will never know the answer if I don’t get back up. In order for God to keep my path straight, I need to trust Him.
So I am letting God help me back up, and taking another step.
And I need your help. Did you know that tickets to India are $1000 cheaper in January than they are in December? I want to go to India for two weeks in January to help at SCH and to see where Abba Father wants me be a co-laborer in His Kingdom for this next season. Will you partner with me?
But before I start raising funds for India, I need to finish the season I am in. And that means raising the remaining $800 I owe for my time at CGA. Will you help me finish fundraising? If God is leading you to, please click on the support me tab on the left.
And as always, keep being prayer warriors on my behalf.
God Bless!
