So real talk…
I’m supposed to be talking to you guys about training camp.. I started to write about it two weeks ago. I got about half way through it then I passed out. Since I did start it at 3am after I got off work. I am also supposed to be writing a letter about fundraising. I need $ 5,000 before I leave in January.
I never finished it. I believe it’s saved somewhere on my computer and I haven’t written that fundraising letter.
I got off work about an hour ago. I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep. Since I have to be at work again in 7 hours for some dumb game that’s playing at 8:30 am…keel meh…
Anyways..I’m laying in bed and I started to think about all the money I have to raise in about three weeks. Which should be my main concern right now. Since that only makes sense. But all I can really think about is the fact that on December 18th. I have a plane ticket to leave Washington. Just typing that, tears are starting to stream down my tired face..It’s so extremely silly to even type that right now.
I’ve been contacted by AIM about my plans on how I’m going to raise another $ 5,000 in about two weeks. Which I haven’t called back or replied to.
Because honestly guys, that only means that I’m taking steps away from Washington.
DON’T GET ME WRONG, I want to do this more then anything. But I’m so scared to.
At the very end of training camp. They told us not to focus too much on leaving to go on the race. But to focus on the time that we have left where we’re at. I completely understand this. But my problem is the exact opposite. I can’t stop thinking about all that I’m leaving behind.
So that’s where I’m at guys. I have to raise $ 5,000 by December 18th. That will be the last day that I will be able to raise the funds needed on my own. But I’m not sure how I’m even supposed to ask for your help when I’m scared out of my mind to even leave this place that I’ve called home for almost 7 years now.
I guess you could say that there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to reach this goal.
If I don’t, then it’s safe.
Then I can’t leave.
Then I’m safe to stay in my comfortable safe life..
From my last post, I guess I’ve just wanted to show you that I don’t want to write what I believe you guys want to read.
I don’t want to write “what I should say” to show you that I’m doing the “right” thing with my life.
Deep down, I just believe that God wants me to drop my comfortable life. To leave all that I’ve known for the last several years. To follow His path for me. And, the hardest thing of all, is to ask for help. I have been pretty self sufficient up here in Washington. But, when I quit my job on the 18th, I will lose my ability to raise the last of my needed funds.
If you would like to be a part of the “Get Lindsey out of Washington campaign”
