“I’m so bored of little gods, while standing on the edge of something large… while standing here so close to you. We could be consumed. What a glorious day!” –David Crowder
My older brother drove me to the airport on Friday morning and we sat in complete silence for the majority of the ride. I could not believe that I was actually going to the first step in my year long journey around the world… training camp! My mind was racing with all of the reasons why I was completely crazy for going on this trip. Why did I sign up to do this? I cannot believe that I am actually going to give up all my comforts in life to travel around the world with complete strangers, to live in tents, and work in poverty ridden areas of the world. I like my life the way it is. I’m comfortable!
When I finally worked up the energy to talk to Luke, all I could say was “I must be crazy”! He laughed and agreed with a simple “yeah”. Then we returned to silence. I did not want to get on that plane. I wanted any reason, any excuse to not go. I had to keep reminding myself that although it will be one of the hardest year of my life, I also knew that it would be one the best years of my life.
I have now been at training camp for four days and I can’t believe how much I’ve already changed. I’m completely emotionally drained and tired, but I’m so excited for how God is already working in my life and in the lives of my 36 teammates. We are going through a time of preparation emotionally, spiritually, and physically for all the challenges we will face in the upcoming year, but most importantly we are preparing ourselves to be in a position where we can confidently use the gifts God has given us to serve all the men, women and children we will meet around the world.
I still have many fears about going and it is extremely difficult to let go of all the people and comforts that I love in life for an entire year, but I know that nothing compares to the joy of getting to know and serve my God. I’m getting more and more excited about this trip each day, and I’m ready to let go of all my “little gods” in order to be consumed!
