Aside from the ethnic food, amazing God-moments, and traveling the world, I feel like my life for this year has been in a constant state of change. We are constantly changing ministries, roommates, food (edible and sometimes not), languages, countries, cultures, and continents. However, at this point in the Race I feel like everything has become a routine. Given the fact that we are trained to be flexible, I've realized that we are a people who continue to seek comfort. In our situation, ironically enough, we fight for contentment.
I thought I left home to be stripped of familiarities. Didn't we vow that we would release our families, friends, rights, and opportunities to pick up our cross and follow Him?
During this month, we have hit a lot of milestones in our Race: our first holidays spent away from our families, the half way mark in our journey, and a new year. We have experienced so much, but God is saying to me, "I want more!"
Yes, on the outside when someone looks at me they might see a girl willing to put her future on hold to serve God and His people for a year, or a girl who has incredible faith to follow the Spirit into some dark and depressed nations. But God is still saying to me, "I want more!"
I want ALL of your heart.
I want ALL of your love.
I want ALL of YOU!
We are onto our seventh month on the Race, and we keep asking ourselves, "If I went home today, woudl people look at me as a changed person?"
I want to love unconditionally. I want to see blindly. I want a life of radical change. But it's not until I genuinely release myself and live through the Spirit that my comforts will become obsolete and my seeking is found only in Him.
