At my Bible study here in Morocco, we are reading through the book of Philippians. This week, we read the passage in Philippians, chapter 4, where Paul talks about how we should not worry about anything, but should pray about everything.
I got back home from Bible study, tried to go to bed, and realized there was no way I was going to be able to sleep. All of a sudden, it’s nearly the end of March, and the time for me to say goodbye and leave Morocco seems to be creeping up on me. Sometimes, this feels like a great thing 🙂 And other times, like last night, I begin to freak out a bit.
Anyways, I wrote down my worries and then began to turn them into prayers. People often ask me what I will do after the world race, and I answer, “I have no idea!” I plan on following where God leads me over this next year. While this sounds great in theory, its easy to say- less easy to feel at peace with. Although I don’t feel as though I’m overly stressed about my future, I do think there are constant worries in the back of my mind- will I have enough money when I get back, will I be able to get a teaching job in the States in August, will I even want to be in the States, where will God call me to next, will He call me back to Morocco, etc.
I am especially struggling with the whole leaving Morocco, possibly forever, thing. So I wrote down some of these worries, and I just prayed that as I prepare to leave Morocco, even though I know sadness will hit, that God would give me a peace about leaving. I prayed that He would just guard my heart and mind from worrying about a future which I know I need to leave to Him and that I would be able to just place my trust fully in His plan for my life.
It funny, because I had left a column for when these prayers were answered on the right side of my paper, not really sure how I would know when they were answered. However, when I finished praying, I just started writing down things in the “answered” column. God spoke to me through the other verses that we had read at Bible study, telling me to “Rejoice!” and to “thank Him for all He has done.” Literally seconds after praying, I felt God’s peace in his response to my prayers. He was telling me that as I’m preparing for the World Race (which includes leaving Morocco), I need to rejoice in all that Morocco has been to me and in all that God has done in my life over these last 4 years. He reminded me that no matter where I end up in the future, it is okay, because wherever I am He will be at work in my life.
