This week has been full already! I nanny for two beautiful families and have learned so much about loving children and cherishing them from their parents. It was nap time for the two little girls that I watch on wednesdays and as they were sleeping, I was spending some time talking/journaling with Jesus about people that were on my heart. As I began, I just felt an overwhelming urge to pray for the two little girls and my heart went to a deep place with the Lord. They are going to be world changers! I literally have the privilege to get to spend one whole day with God’s creation, his treasures. Their little lives are so precious and full. We wonder at butterflies and giggle at lizards that hide in the back porch chairs. Swinging high, high and higher, we are thrilled by the feeling of dropping from the sky, almost touching the earth and soaring back up again. Sometimes, we walk through sadness or frustration together too. I think we operate under the very false assumption that a child’s world isn’t full yet, that it is simple. Certainly, they aren’t working a job or paying bills, but they are encountering emotions and experiences that they have never walked through before and we, as people who have journeyed down the road a little further, get the privilege of partnering with Jesus as He leads them through these experiences.
I love when God reveals His love for people to me and when I walk in the power of that revelation my life is full of true peace. It isn’t the kind of lazy day, “I don’t have to go anywhere today” kind of peace, but the “my day could be full of meetings and classes and work and I am still feeling refreshed” kind of peace. I haven’t really been walking in this peace as much this year. I stopped looking at Jesus and looked down at my sin and the world and I got scared, but Jesus is the good Shepherd and when one of his sheep strays, He goes after them. As I nannied this past week, the Lord kept turning my heart and my mind to Him. As I made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, He was with me. As I struggled with genuinely wanting to play another game of doctor or fishermen, He was reminding me of the joy of doing life with these precious children. And when there were moments where I felt lonely or scared when the kiddos were down napping, He reminded me that He was right next to me.
One of the things that I am so excited about for the World Race, is the opportunity to just go and love people. God literally placed me on this earth to love Him and to love people. As I leave behind comfort, my reliable jobs and my schedule, I believe that God is going to create deeper dependence in me and more room for me to love the people He puts in my path!
Thanks so much for reading! Here are some life updates:
I am reading: “The Last Sin Eater” by Francine Rivers. If you want to read an amazing story and get pumped up about the Gospel read this!
I am listening to: “The Winemakers Love Song” by Tyler Lyle
I am singing: “Hidden” United Pursuit
I am looking forward to: Getting my aggie ring this friday at 2:45. WHOOP!
I laughed when: My five roomates and I sat in our hallway lined with pillows after three tornado warnings at four in the morning (this came after our neighbors dog got sprayed by a skunk that he scared under our back porch. Our windows were open.)
