What will you do with your time?

I was laying in my cozy bed at my parent’s house less than two minutes ago, wondering why I couldn’t fall asleep. Its 11:30, and that’s late for me, normally I’m in bed by 10 at the LATEST. I’m laying there unable to fall asleep, uncomfortable. Not that my bed is uncomfortable, but I am uncomfortable. To my core I am uncomfortable.

Then I realize that I am uncomfortable because I am not home. I may be lying in a cozy bed at the place I’ve called home for more than 14 years, but I am not home. My very being is longing to be somewhere else. 

Somewhere else with 53 other crazy people. Laying on a not so comfortable sleeping pad. Sleeping under a tarp, cold and wet. Worshiping our Lord in 54 different but totally amazing ways. Eating our food family style with our fingers. Supporting each other. Loving on each other. Calling each other into the people God created us to be. 

So now here I sit. 

Here I sit in the time of “already but not yet.”

I already know where God has called me, but I can not yet live there. 

I have already experienced a portion of what my new home is to be, but I can not yet experience it in its fullness. 

Then I realized that this is EXACTLY where God calls all of us to live every day of our lives. In our very being we are longing to be home. 

We have already seen a portion, a sliver, of God’s love for us, but we have not yet been called home. 

We already have Christ living inside of our broken selves, but we have not yet experienced what it means to live in perfect communion with our Lord and Savior. 

So now here we sit. 

Here we sit in the time of “already but not yet.”

What will you do with your time?