I remember the day I hugged my mom goodbye as I walked through airport security, about to embark on this 11 month journey they call The World Race. I had this fear that I would go around the world, changing lives including my own and I would return to a family that had, in a sense, stood still. I had these thoughts of "They can't be saved without me there" and "I am the strong tower of this household, how could they possibly make it without me".
This week a message was given to me from my team leader about Abandonment, Brokenness, and Dependence. It couldn't have come at a better time. You see a little over three weeks ago I got news that my mom had dedicated her life to Christ and had gotten baptized. As soon as I read the message tear began to stream down my face. In the middle of a food court in Tegucigalpa, Honduras God had made those three words come full circle.
ABANDONMENT: I took the leap of faith, not only to leave on the race, but to place my family in the arms of Jesus, and trust that He would take care of them. I laid down my pride of believing that I was the only way Jesus could reach my mom and my family.
BROKENNESS: Once a week my team and I would hit our knees in prayer for our families. Through the pain of missing my family, of wondering if they were going to make it without me, I prayed relentlessly that God would invade the hearts of the ones I love the most. I prayed endlessly that they would desire to know Him as their Lord and savior, just as I do.
DEPENDENCE: For the last 2 months, I have daily laid myself down, picked up my cross, and followed the calling God has placed on my life. Depending only on Him to be my strength and comfort in times of weakness.
Truth is God doesn't need you to save your family. In all actuality He may need to remove you from the situation in order for His will to be done. Sometimes it takes you leaving for them to have no choice but to seek the very reason you left in the first place. When you are obedient in what God has called you to do, He will not only bless you, but those who mean the most to you.
To see prayers answered is one of the best feelings in the entire world. They may not be answered in the way that you had imagined, but God has the perfect plan in mind for each and every one of us.
Keep seeking. Keep pressing. Hold on for more.
