http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77SuukJEJ2Q
I AM- Crowder
this song has been getting me through every emotion that has been thrown at me during my preparation for the race. there is something so peaceful in knowing that God has ahold of my heart and is not letting me go. That his love is enough to calm any raging sea. Even if that sea is something as little as my anxiety in trying to raise money for the race.
every day I get more and more excited for the adventure God has called me on. It’s when I sit down to write support letters, ask people for money, write out the list of supplies I need and things I need to get done before I leave, that’s when the anxiety takes over for a minute. but I’m quickly learning that God has control over this. He brought me to this and he will absolutely bring me through it, that I am so very confident in. I’m trying to learn to not let myself get in the way of His plan (that’s a new idea for me) but each day is a step closer to getting to where I need to be.
last night I couldn’t sleep because all I kept thinking about was the “what if’s” of the trip. What if I can’t raise the money, what if something happens while I’m overseas, what if my family needs me while I’m gone. well once I prayed the situation up and gave it to God, I was finally able to fall asleep and I woke up this morning in extreme peace. Oh, and I woke up saying this verse:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
God’s little way of reminding me–CALM YOURSELF, LESLIE. I’ve got this.
then I remember just how BIG and MIGHTY He is. and I’m in complete awe. needless to say, while my mind might wander into a fit of anxiety, all in all, I’m very peaceful and very blessed. I know God will provide, I just need to step back and let Him work.
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