I’ve been really scared these past few weeks. Scared to send out letters, to tell people about my trip. To ask for money. Up until basically last week, my plan to go on the World Race was pretty private. Only a few people knew about it. I hesitated to tell even my family and best friends about my application and interview. I figured that the fewer people who knew, the easier it would be to back out.
The fear didn’t go away when I sent out my letters, and started to spread the news. People came to me with their own fears, mostly in the form of looks of shock and statements of “That’s a lot of money you have to raise.” I know it is. Trust me, I know. But being worried about how much money I have to raise won’t help me at all. In fact, it will just bring me farther from where God wants me — in a position of trust, knowing that He will provide.
This week I have been humbled over and over again, because God is providing. The first few letters are reaching their recipients. People I know and love, people I haven’t talked to in years, and some people I’ve never met are opening their mailboxes and reading about God’s plans for me. And through those pieces of paper, the Lord has opened my eyes to His provision.
I am humbled by the friends who I haven’t seen since high school, who want to join me and support me even though they’re in school and have plenty of other things to spend money on.
I am humbled by the donations from my mom’s friends, who hadn’t even received a letter (or any begging) from me yet.
I am humbled by the phone call I received today, from dear friends across the country wanting to support me in a big way.
I am humbled by the way that God is revealing His plan for me, even when I’m terrified to trust in a plan so big and crazy.
I’m still scared. A little bubble of fear appears whenever I think about deadlines, or talk to someone who has that look of shock. But the bubble pops whenever I turn my eyes back to Jesus, who’s not scared. He knows exactly what He’s brought me into, and He knows exactly how He will provide. So in the meantime, I am being humbled. May God have all the glory.
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