This month something happened.
Somewhere in the middle of amazing ministry,
late night phase 10 games,
an intimate night of worship,
deep conversations at the lunch table,
and laughing until my insides were exploding,
I realized that I need this.
I need Meagan to just understand
without me having to say anything at all.
I need Sam’s vulnerability
to bring my team into the deeper places
and Rachel’s radical faith
to push me into more and more of the Spirit.
And after a long day of logistics work in the church office
I just need to hear Tyler’s beautiful laugh
as that reminder that I’m home for the night
and its ok to turn my brain off for a while.
I need both the gentleness of Michelle
and the honesty of Candice
to keep me feeling raw and known,
yet fully loved and cared about.
I need Suzanne to ask those spiritual questions
that most people just write off too easily.
And I need Reagan and Rebekah beside me-
preferably every minute of the day
…but mainly during the Jesus talks.
because they’re wrestlers like me
and it’s just better when we’re together.
(start humming Jack Johnson song here…)
I need Jesse’s passion for life always
to keep me from skipping by moments so quickly
or writing things off as small or insignificant.
And I need Matt’s genuine love for people
to give me that much needed reality check
when I’m too quick to open my mouth
and slow to extend grace
This is that big scary community thing
that I’ve heard so much about
but never seen done well.
You hold my story
and I'll hold yours,
forever aware of the value and weight
of such a sacred thing.
I'll forgive you for throwing my earrings down the drain
and you forgive me for leaving my crap all over the table.
I'll "share" my ice cream and you'll give me an oreo.
I'll respect your journey
if you'll respect mine.
M&M…I think we did it well this month.
Because this girl right here
Is finally accepting that I need people.
And that it’s not a sign of weakness,
but of strength and growth and maturity.
Craziness.
late night ice cream
dance parties in the kitchen
thousands of dollars in support raised
using a spoon to scoop water off the floor
playing Romanian dress up
starting every day with 2 hours of prayer
questions of the day with Raul
tears at the table
impossible lists
feedback in the moment
telephone Pictionary
infirmary room
toilet paper coffee filters
hot water and healthy cereal
vegetable class 101
meals for 12
YES to these things.
