Sleeping out of a sleeping bag for 11 months….
Giving of myself daily for others…..
No dating…….
Giving my dog up for foster care….
Leaving my job……
Selling my items….
Sleeping out of a tent…
Why would I want to do all of these things above and more? They aren’t very appealing.
One word: Love.
There are so many reasons why I shouldn’t go on this trip. Selfish reasons, excuses, logical arguments all that could tell me NOT to go…. For the nay sayers, I have one simple question for you,
have you seen what’s been going on in the world lately? Just turn on the news, you hear about 80% bad things happening with maybe 20% good (and I’m being generous). If no one steps out, nothing is going to change.
For those of you that don’t know, this trip did not come out of nowhere for me. I signed up for this trip back in 2012, about 3 months before mom’s diagnosis. I was set to leave on the 2013 January Route (shout out to my peeps I met through the WR on that squad).
The first couple months after mom’s diagnosis, I decided to continue on with the trip. This is what I wanted to do, this is what I had planned to do. God’s plans though, aren’t always our plans….clearly. *Can i get an Amen*
After months of battling with God, I knew in my spirit He was asking me to stay & serve beside mom. This was extremely hard for me to do, more than I wanted to admit.
I was going against what everyone was telling me “you must have no faith!Go & just believe God will heal her” but all I could tell them was that I knew God had asked me to stay.
If I had listened to others & not to God, I would have only had 1 year with mom vs 2. God’s timing is perfect.
You might think that I’m going for the adventure & why don’t I just go camping for a week in the woods…?
Nope, I’m not going for the adventure. Yes, this is part of it, I mean you can’t ignore the fact that you’re going to be sleeping out of a sleeping bag for 11 months.
I’m going because this is my heart, this is my desire, this is my passion.
I want NOTHING more than to say I didn’t just live for selfish reasons. I lived to make an impact, one person at a time. I lived for others, and more importantly….I LIVED to follow God.
I know this trip is going to change me more than i can even prepare for.
I know that I’m at a crossroads in my life, and the WR is going to be life changing.
No, I’m not sure what will happen afterwards. Right now, I’m not thinking that far ahead…BUT if I could choose now…I’d do this forever.
Love love love love love y’all
L
