I always have these grand ideas for blog topics and ideas, ever since I was told I had to do a blog I think man this would make a good blog. I begin to think of what I would write, but then it never actually makes its on the computer; it stays just in my head. But tonight when this familiar process happened, I thought this really needs to be something I write about. This is a little bit of a combination of many things that I have been planning on writing about. I will most likely have to make multiple blogs on these topics to get the full picture of what God is up to in my life and mind. But, last tonight I was reminded of why The World Race is so special and why I know God is calling me on this journey.
I went and hung out with some friends after our church service last night. We sat around, joked, laughed a lot, and then began to dig into each other lives. One of my friends just started her freshman year of college and we asked her how college life and classes have been treating her. She began to tell us with so much compassion and distress about the hearts of her class mates, who claim to be Atheists. They told her they believe there is no god and they decided to live life with no cares. Because in all reality to them there is no purpose to life. As she tells us about her class mates, I begin to think that would be an awful way to live. To just be here to be here, to just live in emptiness. But then God’s sweet spirit came whispering in just reminding me I don’t have to live like that. I know that we ALL were made for a purpose, a beautiful purpose! We were made to glorify God with all we have, to be an image of him, to bring his kingdom here, and to fight for it. That gives life purpose and that gives me purpose, I live for a reason! I believe there is a God and he is name is Yahweh! He died to save me to save little ole me and he died to save all men. We just have to depend in that. We have to put our faith in only what He could do; only what he did! He took our punishment of death, the sentence that was rightfully mine, but He paid it for me. Now I can live and I live for HIM. That gives me more than a purpose, it gives me joy to live for him, joy (peace) that surpasses all understanding.
After this conversation I was talking to another one of my friends about her decision to go into ministry! A prayerful realization where God showed her that music ministry is what He has for her. She knows she is being called to ministry but she had plans of becoming a pharmacist, she was in school and headed in that direction. So it took a lot of courage to first tell her parents then to drop out of school. She is strong young lady and I love to see her being so willing to just follow where God is leading her! As we talk about fear and the unsureness of both of our next steps, she introduces me to the song. The song was “Oceans” by Hillsong United. While listening to this song the sweetest reminder stuck out to me. The verse says, “You've never failed and You won't start now.” That verse is so true, God has been with me even when I didn’t want Him or when I ignored him and let him down. Yet no matter how many times I fail He will not let me down. Not with raising money, not with my what goes on at home while I am gone, not with what my life looks like when I get back from the race, because he has it all in his hands.
Then to continue the train of how good God is and his timing is perfect, I get home to read an email from my WR Mobilizer about how God’s message to his people is consistent over and over again, throughout the Bible people are told, “Do not be afraid and have faith God has got it under control.” (bible verses). Then to end the post the song “Oceans” was yet again sang to me. And I continue to sing the bridge:
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”
And that is my prayer that my faith will be made stronger, that God will lead me to places I could never imagine in the physical world, but more so in my spiritual walk with Him. It is my prayer that my trust in Him and what only He can do, and not what I can, will allow Him to use me in ways unthinkable to fulfill His purpose for me … to bring his kingdom to this Earth and to every part of this planet from my hometown Jesup, Georgia to Riga, Latvia. It starts now!
