The support-raising roller coaster has officially left the station. And it’s already proving to be quite the ride.
In my last blog I announced that the Lord had called me back out on the field (again), and included a petition for prayer and support. In April, I emailed out a newsletter, sharing stories and photographs from the last 2 years. I’ve been praying. You’ve been praying. And God has been listening. And yet, the support hasn’t come in.
To be honest, I feel stuck. And I wonder about where my heart is in all of this. It’s been 2 years of almost continual support raising, and God has shown up before. So why do I hesitate when He gives me a creative support-raising idea? And why does my mind flood with doubts any time I check my support account? I get annoyed with my brain quite frequently, battling to fill it with Truth in attempts to flush out any lies. But out of every area I battle in there, support-raising seems to be one of the vicious ones that continually threatens to knock my legs out from under me and leave me flat on my back. Yet even though the questions flicker in, even though I have my moments of confusion as to why God “isn’t showing up”, and even though my support account currently reads -$1684.89 instead of +$10,000, I can help but trust. Why?
Because I know God is good.
I know God is a provider.
And I know that my inheritance is one of absolute and complete ABUNDANCE.
So in this moment of vulnerability, I want you to know that I’m choosing. Choosing to stay positive, choosing to focus on Truth, and choosing to believe with every fiber of my being that God is smiling right now. Not because I’m struggling. Not because He knows exactly how, when, where, and through whom the provision will come. But because in every moment of choosing, I’m reinforcing who I am as His child and His beloved. And that will always bring Him joy.
from my journal last week as i read mark 7:34
I’ve had an idea for a few months now on how to bless those who bless me. Because I earnestly, whole-heartedly want to bless you too. But I’ve hesitated in going forward with it. From fear, from doubt, from lack of time, from whatever the reason was, I refuse to be held back by it anymore. So here, dear friends, is a new approach to giving back: The Be Blessed for Blessing Program.
For anyone that gives a certain amount, you get a super cool gift as a small token of thanks and appreciation. Basically, you give a gift, you get a gift:
- For a donation of $50, you’ll receive postcards from me on the field
- For a donation of $100, you’ll receive a trendy “kingdom” t-shirt (photo coming soon), and postcards from on the field
- For a donation of $250, you’ll receive a framed piece of artwork or photograph, a trendy “kingdom” t-shirt, and postcards from on the field
- For a donation of $500, you’ll receive a coffee-table book of photography and stories, a framed piece of artwork or photograph, a trendy “kingdom” t-shirt, and postcards from on the field
- For a donation of $1000, you’ll receive a souvenir from the country of your choice, a coffee-table book of photography and stories, a framed piece of artwork or photograph, a trendy “kingdom” t-shirt, and postcards from on the field
- For a donation of $2500, I will travel to wherever you are once I am off the field to share everything the Lord has done through you in your partnership with me over the last 6 months. Also, a souvenir from the country of your choice, a coffee-table book of photography and stories, a framed piece of artwork or photograph, a trendy “kingdom” t-shirt, and postcards from on the field
And in case you haven’t heard monthly donations are an option too! Sometimes it’s easier to give a little here, a little there. And if it’s easier for you to do it that way, I’d love for that to be the way you give. After all, giving should never be a burden; it should be a blessing for you too. So if giving monthly is the way you’d like to go, just let me know how much and how long you’re going to be walking with me in that way so I can make sure to get your gifts to you and adjust numbers on this end.
As of right now, the need is $10,000 over the next 6 months. In order to Launch with this new squad in July however, there is an immediate need of $3000 by next week. I know that the Lord has called me to this new season with this new squad and He will provide. So all I ask is that you seek Him and ask if maybe, just maybe, He wants to provide through you.
the new squad at training camp — X SQUAD!
So today bless and be blessed. Love and be loved.
