As the support goals get nearer and nearer, and continually
get bigger, I am forced into a lot of reflection time. I am thankful for these
times, because deeper intimacy with God is all that I crave for, and in times
like this, I get it at its deepest.
So once again, I got to have a good talk with God about the
race, this time in the shower. I was trying to process, process the possibility
of going home, the reasons why I wanted to stay, and the feelings welling inside
me in the midst of all of this. The question that kept popping into my head,
and is a recurring one through out the three months that I have been on the
race is, what is my purpose for being here?
I have come to a place in my walk where I completely trust
God and in that have entrusted Him with every aspect of my life. So no matter
where He sends me, or what He has me doing, I am joyful if it is where He has
called me, whether that is at home, or any of the 11 countries my squad will be
going to. The ME part, I’ve got down. So I had to ask, why did He bring me
here, and what is my purpose beyond the vagueness of being a servant… what is
His intent?
Instead of the answer I was asking for, He posed a different
question. He asked what I wanted from this race. I had to take a second, but that was a question I could actually
answer.
You see, so much of this race is the joy I get in seeing the
world, encountering different cultures, and bringing God where so many won’t or
do not have a chance to go. More than that though, all that I want is to have a
purposeful life… EVERYDAY. I want
more of Him, period. I just care about Him and enhancing His kingdom, our kingdom. I want to be where He wants me and do what He wants me to
do, not for the simple sake of obedience, but because being used by Him, having
His purpose work through me, and
bringing His love to all the people
of this world, FULFILLS me. That
alone gives purpose to my life, ambition to my thoughts, and gives me hope.
So, no, I do not have to be on the race, to live the
purposeful life I seek, and I will live it everyday of my life, no matter where
I am. I don’t need to be here to enhance His kingdom, no. I do, however know
that I can be used in these 11 countries, I do trust that God has called me
here, for their sake, for my sake, and for the sake of His kingdom. I do trust
that God is moving in this world in ways beyond my limited understanding, and
believe that with a humbled heart of true servant hood to God, He can use my
life to impact these places. I do know that this is where He has called me to
be, this is the race He has called me to run, and is why I feel called to
continue.
So, once again, I simply ask for you to partner with me in
this. I have $7,675 left to raise to be fully funded. I have $1,375 left to
raise by the end of this month, and another $2,000 to raise by October 15.
Every dollar helps, as does every prayer, so spread the word, and pray with me
continually please.
