I am in INDIA.
It is month five of the race and starting to set in… Im away.
Away from family, friends, target, the gap, comfort food.. Anything I would normally do when bored has been removed. Our internet access is very limited and going for a run is not an option. (unless I want to run with one of the men from my team and in pants.)
All that being said.. it is worth it.
Im a planner, always have been. Always wanting to know the next step to take and don’t want to waste anytime getting there. So as God continues to make my love and passion for the children and youth in America more and more clear I find myself wondering why wait until I return in August to begin. Why am I still here? on the race.. traveling around the world, when I could be back in the states working with the youth?
I am almost 24 and no where near reaching any of the "goals" I had set for myself. What am I doing?
I am Stuck!
and God said.. yep! That is exactly right! You are stuck and finally sitting still. You, Lauren, don’t have the answers, you don’t even know all the questions to ask, and that’s exactly where you should be.
"Be Still and know that I am God"
As badly as I would like to skip ahead and get to the next step, start working and begin, God has me exactly where he wants me. It is uncomfortable and confusing but because I cant answer the questions I find myself going to Him even more.
So this month on the race has been hard and not because of the squatty potties and bucket showers but because that control Ive talked about giving up for so long.. is gone.
I have spent more time than ever listening to God and allowing him to be my teacher and comforter.
This race is one unique journey and I am blessed to have such a patient God walk along side with me and point me in the right direction when I find myself stuck.
