CHANGE. Why is it that the word change seems so scary? Most of the time change is good! Change can be exciting, fun, and diffrent. But so many people shy away from change. They would rather stay in the same job, wear the same clothes, and have the same friends. Blah. Blah. Blah. Change is good. I have never been scared of change. In fact, I embrace change. I love moving to different places, meeting new friends, or having my schedule shaken up. I find change fun, i am not very fond of a boring life. I like adventure, it gives me a purpose for living. But right now I am scared. Scratch that. I am TERRIFIED. The world race is a whole diffrent type of change. I will not have my comfortable solid life. I will be in the unfamiliar constantly. I will have to depend on my team, I can not be independent Lauren Lamb anymore. I will be thrown into situations that are uncomfortable and strange. I am just thinking about these situations now and my heart is beating fast. Do not worry supporters! These will not be dangerous situations. I will not be catching wild animals for dinner or anything like that. I will be perfectly safe.
At the beginning of every year, I look back in my journals from the year before. For instance, I read my entry from January 2011 this year. It is crazy how much can change in a year. In January 2011 I was living at home, working at CVS Pharmacy, and nursing a very broken heart. Now I am living in New Orleans, working at a vet clinic and I have a happy healed heart. 2011 was a very big year for me. It was a year of faith and learning to fully trust God in all aspects of my life. As I read my journal entry, I was taken back to the exact moment last year. I rememeber lying on my bed, asking God to teach me to be more like him and to mold me into what he wanted. I had no real idea what I was asking back then. I had a lot of " teachable" moments last year and I learned some hard lessons as well. But now, I would not trade them for anything. I am a different Lauren now, than I was then.
2012 will be a year of new experiences. I was talking to my pastor and his wife last week and they said Lauren this trip is going to change your life. I hope it does. I want my life to be radically changed. I want to look back in January 2013 and be amazed at what God has done. I want to be so far out of my comfort zone that I would want to live my life that way. I want to walk up the sick and pray for them, without thinking twice. I want to be able to trust God fully and not think twice about it. I want to be changed.
