No, this isn’t my little brother…this is me. And yes, I still don’t enjoy brushing my hair! (Sorry for the nudity)
Who am I….? Well, I’m still learning. For so long I’ve had this brick wall up that prevented me from knowing myself or anyone else. Now I’ve let down the brick wall and I’m more vulnerable than ever. I’m still uncertain of some things about myself but I am certain of my God! He is teaching me new things about myself every day. I am sure of this fire that He’s set inside my heart. My soul longs to be closer to him by spreading his love! I feel like some people that have known me forever think that I’m being phony when they see me now, but I’m not. God is changing my heart. Therefore, I think differently now and look at his people differently. So, for those of you that I haven’t seen in a while and you’re wondering “What kind of drugs is she taking?” It’s called Jesus drugs! I’ve been working on my relationship with Jesus and the more intimate our relationship becomes the more my heart reveals happiness. In high school and most of college I was very insecure and instead of being fully dependent on Jesus I depended on other things that definitely did everything but bring happiness into my life. I acted as if I were independent and strong. No one could mess with me! HA! Yea right… I was so weak. How could I be anything but weak? When we aren’t depending fully on God that’s what we are! I’m still growing in Christ and I can’t wait to see how much more he’s going to change me during this trip. So to end my first blog entry here is a picture a dear friend of mine captured. I can’t believe how perfect it describes the present chapter of my life with God. This was captured after a bible study about “Enjoying peace in His presence.”
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world” — John 16:33
