I’m ready.
This has been such a long time coming. Tonight I was remembering back to the good ol’ days…
Back when I was 17 and the World Race was just a dream.
2010 when I signed up and quit.
February 2015 when I signed up again, and that December when I deferred.
Now here we are, at Launch, and I’ll be overseas in less than 24 hours.
Tomorrow we are heading to the Atlanta airport at 8:30am for a long travel day. We arrive in Chicago around 2pm, head to Korea at 11:55pm (October 5th), and arrive in Korea 4am (October 7th). Kind of crazy that October 6th doesn’t exist for us.
I’m not nervous at all. I’m pretty sure.
After all this time… I feel like I am finally stepping into the life God has for me… and the safest and most fulfilling place I can be is right where I am.
I didn’t cry at all when I left home.
I did cry when we took off from MSP.
I’ve actually only cried a couple times since being here. I miss my baby (nephew). Funny that one of my newest relationships back home would be the hardest for me to leave.
The enemy is sneaky. He legitimately snuck up on me during a meeting yesterday and completely threw me for a loop (and caused quite a bit of ugly crying). I know many in my life back home are going through some rough times- and the enemy, completely out of the blue, whispered to my heart, “Why would you leave them, knowing where they are at? Why would you leave the hurting around you? Who will be there for them?”
Good for me- and even better for them- God’s sovereign (even when I’m in Cambodia with no internet access). I was convicted of my false identity of “protector” and God reminded me that He is the one protecting my friends and family. I had to give up my false sense of control, release them to God. What a sticky process.
Other than that, I’ve been pretty even emotion-wise. I’m not nervous; there are a few things that I can foresee being challenging for me, but my plan is to face those things head-on because, really, at this point, is there really any other way to deal with these things?
My Squad is amazing. Every single person is amazing. I may not have been able to have but a passing conversation with some in the past couple days, but I know there is so much I will learn from each of these beautiful human beings- and I know they accept me for who I am because we’re family- and what better feeling is there than that?
Did you hear they added Spain to our trip? Amazing.
I think that’s all I have for now.
A blog under 500 words- might be a new record for me.
Love you guys!
Cheers! See you in Cambodia!
