Dear everyone,
When I finally left the United States, I felt that I had made it by the skin of my teeth. The Lord had called me to get out quickly, and it had taken me longer than planned. I knew He had called me because He knew that I was becoming more and more tempted by the world, and I was wanting less and less to escape it. Well, this month is a confirmation of the Lord’s calling. I have never EVER so strongly desired the world as I have this month, so where should I find myself but stuck in a cement compound in the middle of the desert with 55 other Christians. How terribly inconvenient. I have never before struggled so strongly with a desire to escape the eyes of the Lord and live a “normal life” for even just a short while. I see the flaws and the sin in this of course, but that doesn’t mean it reaches my heart, because this desire is so deeply rooted.
It is incredibly difficult…or maybe annoying to me that I’m sharing this, because it means that I might be held accountable, prayed for, and might even (gasp!) overcome this struggle in a time when all I want is to cave to it, but before I left on the Race my mom told me to be honest in everything. Twice she felt that she needed to tell me this, though she wasn’t quite sure why. Well suddenly, for the first time almost ever, I’m having to force myself to be honest. It’s hard to tell someone a struggle that you don’t want to overcome. but I know that deep deep down I DO want to overcome it. I will pray, “Lord, I dont’ want you to help me in this, but do…but please don’t…but do…”
And so, friends, please don’t pray for me…but do.
I am so glad that I’m here and that the Lord is teaching me and moving in such new ways to me this month! I can’t wait to tell you about this ministry and how amazing the people are here.
In Christ,
Laura
