First things first, I am so excited to announce that as of today I am officially fully funded AND my plane flight to Seattle has been covered – God is so faithful and I just marvel at how He has brought everything together! PRAISE GOD!
Even with the exciting news of today, this past week has been a difficult one for me, to say the least. On Friday I said goodbye to Shepherd’s Hill Farm and the group of amazing girls that have meant so much to me over the last year. I moved out of my little apartment and moved all of my stuff back home to my parents’ house where they are graciously allowing it to stay for the next four months (haha, “surprise Mom and Dad, you only thought you got me out of the house for good!” 😉 ) On Sunday I was faced with the hardest goodbye of all as I said goodbye to the man I love most in the world. We know that four months will fly by and that we will be a stronger couple in the end because of it, but the moment of goodbye was still a tough one.
In the midst of all of the tears and goodbyes I have struggled over and over again with why I am doing this. “Why am I choosing to go on this trip where I have to leave the places and people that I dearly love and the comfort and routine of home?” Now that it is coming down to the wire, I am facing a lot of emotions and doubts. I have to keep reminding myself that the Lord called me to this opportunity and that He is walking with me each step of the way. He is not waiting at the airport to join me when I get on the plane to Cambodia – He is walking with me through each goodbye, each struggle, each exciting moment…
After reading all that you are probably wondering, “isn’t she excited at all about this trip?” The answer is a very definite yes. I am so excited about all that God has in store for me and my team over the next 4 months, but I am also struggling with the goodbyes as this trip becomes less of an idea and more of a reality. Exciting – definitely! Scary – you bet! But I know that with God beside me each step of the way, the support of my team and the prayers of family and friends here at home, I will be ready.
Please pray that over the next 8 days that I am at home, the Lord will bring peace and renew the joy and excitement in my heart as I prepare to go. Pray that I will not be overwhelmed with all that I have left to do, and that I will make time to prepare not only my luggage but also my heart for all that lies ahead.
8 days until I get on a plane to Seattle, WA and 9 days until I fly to Cambodia!!!!
