So I used to live by the moto: "Failure to Plan is Planning to Fail" but now I know my plans are pointless. Made to the best of my knowledge with the best of my abilities in line, they still fall short. There are so many things I don't know, can't foresee and have absolutely no control over. Anyone who knows me knows just how much of a planner I am by nature. Plans for dinner, plans for the weekend, plans for next month, even plans for 10 years from now. But, since I am not God, my plans usually don't pan out. I can't see what is around the next bend, and no matter how hard I try, I cannot plan for every contingency. This used to scare the crap out of me!
Then yesterday I was reading Ephesians and read the following:
"And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment–to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ." Ephesians 1:9-10
It was then I realized that God will make known to me in His timing, not mine. I don't need to know the play by play, but only trust in the one calling the plays.
"In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will." Ephesians 1:11
I realized I don't need a plan because God already has one. Everytime I make a plan in my finite wisdom and understanding I then focus on seeing that the plan is followed. I make my plan my god instead of simply following God. God will ensure His plan is fulfilled, and making plans of my own only puts me squarely in His way.
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10
You see, before the foundations of the earth God had a plan—he isn't making this stuff up as He goes along. His plan cannot be thwarted or fail.
So as I started to "logically" think that perhaps now is not the time for me to be going on a year long mission trip, and that it would be more "rational" for me to stay here and get a few more things in order I realized I was making my own plan again. Deadlines are quickly approaching, and I don't see anyway that I'll be able to meet them. But, I've also discovered God likes to swoop in during the 11th hour and make His grand presence known so that He alone receives the glory.
So as I was vacilating of which direction to take, stay or leave I realized the only direction I ever need to follow is wherever God is leading. I need not set my heart on any particular plan. Whether I go or stay God is still on the throne, deserves my praise and will be glorified.
So I'm living one day at a time, with no plan and waiting on the Lord to work everything out in His time. Currently I am only 10% funded for my trip. If I don't raise $1804 by July 1 I will not be leaving in September. I'm trusting God to supply for my needs from the riches of His glory. Please take a moment to pray and see if you are the vessle which He will use to send me. I desperately desire to serve God on The World Race, but I need your financial support to make that happen. Please click on the "Support Me" tab today and send me to help the needy and give the message of hope to a lost and dying world.
