While doing my devotional today in "My Utmost for His Highest" I was so encouraged!
I John 3:2 "It doth not yet appear what we shall be."
Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. That could not be more true of my life! With a degree in logistics I am very calculating! We imagine that we have to reach some end, but that is not the nature of spiritual life. The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty, consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. I'm pretty sure moving, on average, every 6 months since high school suffices as not making my nest anywhere! Common sense says–"Well, supposing I were in that condition…" We cannot suppose ourselves in any condition we have never been in.
Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life: gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. Like, will I raise all the money for my trip? What will I do with my cat while I'm gone? Will I be able to survive the journey? What will I do with my life upon my return? Just to name a few…. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. Perhaps feeding an orphan, losing a job, buying a homeless man a train ride, praying for a little girl. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness, it should be rather an expression of breathles expetation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. Amen! Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time. And the amazing stories that come along with all of those surprises!!! 🙂 I've got a few if anyone ever wants to hear them!
When we become advocates of a creed, something dies; we do not believe God, we only believe our belief about Him. Jesus said, "Except ye…become as little children." Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but uncertain of what He is going to do next. I'm happy to know these feelings of uncertainty are to be expected—even though they go against my natural desire for order and certainty. I've never felt more uncertain about my life than I do right now, and yet I am filled with such peace! If we are only certain in our beliefs, we get dignified and severe and have the ban of finality about our views; but when we are rightly related to God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy.
"Believe also in Me," said Jesus, not–"Believe certain things about Me." Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come. Remain loyal to Him.
So far I've earned $1030 for my trip! Praise God and thank you to all who have sent funds! But I still need $14,470 before February 1, 2013. That seems like an insurmountable task, but I am leaving the whole thing to God. I am gloriously uncertain how He will provide, but I am certain that He will.
So go against your common sense, and recklessly abaondon all to God. Be certain of Him alone. I promise He will never let you down!
