One more uber personal post… I am too thankful for what Jesus has done in my life to not share it with anyone who will listen. He saved me from so much. I was a hot mess before I knew Him y’all. God is the only One who could make that an awesome thing. 
I always knew drastic change was inevitable in my life, but I certainly never thought of it as an asset. In fact, I was very uncomfortable with change in the past. I also had a really hard time parting with certain things, especially if it had memories attached to it or if it held some sort of sentimental value. I wouldn’t say that I have been extremely materialistic in my life or anything and the price tag of an item has never meant much to me, but I would say that I allowed many material items to hold more weight in my heart than they should. I felt like I was losing a piece of myself if I had to part with certain items or when I had to move away from a place that I had spent a lot of time and taken root in. It literally hurt! I attached too much emotion to and placed too much value on the things in my world.
My family moved around a lot when my sister, Bailie, and I were in school. We lived in pretty much every part of town at one time or another and I went to 4 different school districts; I always felt like I was “the new girl”. I remember being pretty jealous of the kids that had their long established and close-knit friend groups—those guys who could say they were “lifers” at whatever school I was attending at the time. I looked at the moving around and switching schools as a negative thing. It made me feel insecure in the sense that I wasn’t sure how long I would be living in a certain home or attending a school and being in whatever friend group I had become a part of, and I longed to feel secure in those things, so I had sort of a constant anxiety about losing or being removed from the things I was becoming attached to. I kept trying to form an identity based on these things and the constant moving made that feel impossible.
But God saw it all completely different, and when I began to seek and get to know His heart, He began to share with me a completely new and better perspective of my entire life. Every single day He shows me how He is working everything to my benefit and helping me to trust Him more and more and to rely on my own understanding less and less. Most of the situations I used to see in a such a negative light, I began to recognize as simple trials, and I began to see how I am a stronger and more equipped person for the things He has prepared for me in this life with those trials under my belt. Our faithful and loving God took me by the hand and walked me back through my life to heal those wounds by giving me another look at those painful and confusing times from His perspective; He began to share with me what He was up to in my life back when I felt furthest from Him. The Lord was right there in the mix and He has given me an identity in Him that no man can ever take away from me.
I’ve met a lot of amazing people, all over this town because of how much we moved around… I gained so many lasting friendships regardless of all the moving. I know this town like the back of my hand now and as I grow older, especially after leaving for few periods of time, I have developed a love and deeper appreciation for the place He chose for me to come into the world—what’s up TULSA?!
At the same time I have become increasingly comfortable with change, I actually enjoy it now… Move ME God… Use ME God… I am excited to travel and I want to see the rest of what God created! I have found all the security I will ever need in Him now; I know that He goes before me, stands behind me and lives within me wherever I go. Recently, I heard Him say that I was never meant to take root in any of those places. He said it was all part of the plan. He told me to just get used to being moved around by Him for a while; to appreciate the change of scenery and to grow from it.
I still have boxes and boxes of “keepsakes” in my closet, and I have accumulated a lot of things that I really, really like over the years. I want to know for myself that I can separate from all of these things, and be joyful about leaving it all behind to follow Him. I feel the Spirit leading me to do something that I never imagined I would, and I am finding myself more and more at peace with the idea each time I return to it. I am literally going to sell it all to follow Jesus—through the World Race and beyond. My Jeep, my bikes, my gun, my furniture, most of my clothes and shoes, my purses, and so much more—It all has to go!
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I heard an incredible sermon once about keeping our hands open for God, and not holding onto with tightly clinched fists the things and the people He has provided for us. I was told to handle earthly treasures and relationships (blessings from God) with our palms facing up, toward Him. My perspective became a little more like His after hearing this… I knew His heart a little more. Those things aren’t mine to begin with, and if God were to remove something from my hands, I have to believe that He will replace those things with something better and/or that the subtraction would make me more available for and nearer to Him. When I look back with the newer and better perspective He lead me to find, I can see that He has always been doing that for me. I want to be entirely available and I want to empty myself completely–wring myself out–so He will continue to fill me up. Less of me and more of YOU, Lord!
Love this:
25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing?
26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?
27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing,
29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.
30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’
32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.
33 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
Matthew 6:25-33
I believe Him and I’m ready to do this thing! He has got us COVERED y’all. NO worries.
