“You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of dust”
This song has been on repeat in my head for a few weeks now, and it has got me thinking! So here are my thoughts.
God created me out of the dust. He created me for a specific purpose and He made me to be perfect in His sight. Before I was ever put onto this earth He knew the mistakes I would make so nothing I do will ever surprise Him. He not only made me out of the dust, but He made me to be beautiful because He created me in His image. He took a piece of His heart and from that He molded and formed me, all the little tiny details about me. He said that I would be and do all the things I have been and done in the short 21 years of my life, and He didn’t miss a single detail. Ahhhh it blows my mind every single time I think about it.
But not only did He know me then, He knows me now, today. He knows the person I am and He knows the deep things in my heart. He knows the sound of my laugh and the aching cry of my heart. He knows every silly thing that comes out of my mouth before I even say it. He sees the things no one else sees about me and He still loves me. He still desires me and He still wants to pursue me. He wants me but He doesn’t just want the good things about me, He wants the good the bad and the ugly.
Thats what He is teaching me right now. I am in the middle of no where Romania secluded at a camp with only my team mates around and it is beautiful. It is beautiful to see Gods creation and to feel His presence so close. And out here He has shown me that it doesn’t matter what I look like, what my voice sounds like when I sing and it doesn’t matter if nothing I say makes sense. Because He loves me anyway and He loves ALL the things about me. He loves to see me laughing until I cry. He loves to see me dancing around joyfully. He loves to hear me speak, whether it’s saying something silly or speaking life. But most of all He loves to love me.
I stood around a fire the other night with only my team and the Holy Spirit and we decided to declare some things over ourselves. So I stood boldly and declared these truths.
I declared that I have a voice and it will be heard.
I declared that I am worth it
I declared that I am good enough
In that moment I realized that I can declare those things because God made me to be those things. He already spoke those things over me when He created me. I lived my life for a long time not believing that I could be these things, and since being on the race God has been showing me that I am this, but it has taken me until the middle of month 5 to believe it and declare it.
Another part of the song says “You make me new, You are making me new” and that is exactly what He is doing with me.
God I am ready I am ready I am ready for what you have already been ready to do in me.
Obviously I am ready!
