I'm tired of trying to be perfect. I'm tired of putting up a charade. I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough. I'm tired of wondering if I belong. I'm tired of listening to what the world says about me. I'm tired of wanting to be skinny and thinking that will make me beautiful. I'm tired of thinking I made the wrong decision. 

 
    I'm the person that looks at their flaws. I'm the person that doesn't see what everyone else sees in me. I'm the person that agonizes over everything. I'm the person that hides who I really am…. And yet for some reason I'm here serving God as a missionary… Me?!?!…. 
 
    These thoughts, these feelings have put me in a cage. I was convinced I was free. I wasn't bond. I wasn't seeing the whole picture. All these thoughts and feelings that I believed were normal just weren't. They were lies from Satan himself, the father of lies. Lies that at times I ignored yet they would resurface. Lies that changed my attitude, my thoughts, and my actions. 
 
    As I go into the bars ministering to the girls and guys I realize I'm not much different. I realized my worth wasn't in God but the world. I realized how misguided I'd been. I started to think if I was really supposed to be here. Did God really call me on the World Race or was it my own desire and I manipulated it. I have fought this thought since training camp. I have had countless people show me love and attempt to squash these thoughts but it didn't matter it was too great. I wasn't right… My heart was bonded. It was chained and caged. I wasn't Free….
 
    As I walked through the red light district things changed… I realized I wanted FREEDOM. I was tired of living in a cage. I was never created for that. I want to soar. I want more and I want it all. I want what I'm offering these girls and guys. I want what I was convinced I had. I want what was rightfully mine all along. I want what the enemy took from me. It's mine now I hold it!! 
 
    I bind up the lies and cast them out of my life! I am beautiful!! I am worthy!! I do belong!! I hear God clearly and obey!! What the world says doesn't matter! I no longer focus on my flaws but see what everyone else sees! I no longer need to agonize over things!! I should be a missionary!! It's what my daddy created me for! Cage be gone, I fly free!! I soar on wings created for greatness! What The Lord sets free is free indeed and you better believe I'm free! I'm a new woman walking out what I was called for!! Ahh FREEDOM!!