But…i will say that it’s a set up from God. Hopkinsville is like a time where I can get away from home and focus on what God wants to tell me God showed me the World Race while I was there and I Also I got the call from the World race while I was there and was excepted into the program. God speaks to me and shows me so much during my time in Hopkinsville.
In June of last year I went to Hopkinsville….I was struggling with some things. I hadn’t made the right choices and I was upset at myself for them. I felt horrible! I was confused and hurt. I laid on my hotel bed and begged for God to give me peace over the situation. I immediately had a peace come over me that I had never felt in my life. I knew that God was going to get me through it and I was going to be okay after all.
One night I was on my way home from Hopkinsville, this was several weeks after he had given me the World Race mission, I was so overwhelmed with everything…God had said he would take care of everything if I would just drop everything and follow him. He was going to provide! It was a hard pill to swallow..i’d never had put my faith in God like this..and I was totally going to trust him no matter the cost. It was pouring down rain…I couldn’t even see the road, I could’t’ pull over bc i could’t see anything! That’s when God said…this is where u are with me right now…I’ve given u a mission now u have to trust me..just like this road…you cant see whats ahead of you, everything is a blur. Are u willing to trust me in the storm? In the trials? In the hard times? I started to cry…I let God love on me, I could feel his presence and his arms around me as he took the wheel and carried me through the storm. I knew from that moment that God was in control of the path I was on.
About a month ago I got a call from work to go to Hopkinsville, man oh man was I ticked! It was a Friday morning and i had to drive down there work and then come right back. What a waste! My group leader called and broke the news that Friday morning..she said i got some bad news and I know u are gonna be mad.. boy was i! She said well hurry up and give me a good excuse why u cant go…well i had none! So i had to go!
The week before I had been struggling so bad with everything.. I was soo emotionally tired! I was bitter and just mad about finances and how nobody wants to support. So that day was another set up from God. I went to Hopkinsville…on the way there I listened to a Misti Edwards teaching cd that I had got from Ihop. It was such a refresher to me. God really knows how to get me where I need to be. She talked about how life is a vapor and, u will only love him as much as you let him love you. It was a message I needed to hear, so many times we are so busy with the day to day routines that we don’t let God in the mix. We are all guilty of it!
I leave in two months for the World Race, I will say that I’m not ready! Emotionally, physically, finically, or spiritually. I have a lot of things I have to do to still get prepared over the next two months but I know that God is going to provide..supply..and take care of me!
This Friday and next week I have to work in Hopkinsville. Yeap…i wasn’t happy about it b/c I have sooo much to do BUT this is my last time to get to work there and I’m excited to hear what God has to say to me! Its like the grand finally and I’m soooo stoked! I’m ready to hear from God bc right now i need him more than i have EVER needed him before!
