I looked at my teammate and told her I needed to stay home today after we wandered in from breakfast.
I didn’t realize that all of this had affected me so much.
I didn’t realize that there would be sounds that rattle me to the core.
I didn’t realize that trust is sometimes taking that deep breath and saying “I believe you Jesus”.
I didn’t realize that the days would pass slowly, because I am awaiting another earthquake.
I didn’t realize that the parents who love us so much would remain so concerned about us in the days that have followed.
I didn’t realize that my dad would ask me if I was afraid.
I didn’t realize that my response of “Of course not, Dad” wasn’t how the rest of my squad mates were feeling.
I didn’t realize that my own reaction to the quake would be the position that my parents took.
I didn’t realize that it took so much faith for a dad, a mom, and about 1500 other people to know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be today.
I didn’t realize that I face so many fewer unknowns than my family does; if Nepal shakes, I feel it. They, however, just hear about it on the news and await contact again.
I didn’t realize that my own faith, that should be rattled to the core at this point, is stronger than ever before.
I didn’t realize that the trials that these months have handed me have made me completely dependent on the one who made me.
I didn’t realize that my faith actually inspired some people who currently live almost 10,000 miles away.
I didn’t realize the amount of people who read what I write, comment on blogs, email me encouragement, and what a sigh of relief it was in the days that followed the quake.
I needed to stay home today to say THANK YOU!
Thank you for…
The love
The support
The Emails
The facebook messages
The facebook comments
The relieved faces on facetime
The faith you have to trust God with us
To the parents, family, friends, support team, prayer team, churches, the other squads, and to the 1000s around the world who have taken the time to pray specifically for P-Squad: we are incredibly loved by each and every one of you. We are SO thankful for your prayers, for your love, and your constant support. These have been some trying days, but we know for a fact that God remains on the throne and there is nothing in this world that will dethrone him. Thank you for always loving us, for constantly praying for us, but most of all, for trusting God with us. We are thankful for your faith.
Praying for you often, and continually asking God to reward your sacrifice.
Until He Comes,
Kristy
