I’ve been fighting a very strong desire to be in a relationship this month. I’ve spent the past four months living in community with my teammates, and while I’ve enjoyed living within this community, I know that I don’t want just roommates anymore. I know what it is like to be married, and I want to be investing my time in a relationship with someone who has made a commitment to me as well, not just someone who has been assigned to live with me.
I got divorced at 26, and somewhere along the line I concocted the idea that I would get remarried at 32. I was about 30 at the time and was feeling really good about the progress that I had made after my divorce. I had gone through a couple years of counseling, paid off all financial debts from my marriage, and was involved in an encouraging church community. I was enjoying the freedoms that came with being single, but I also knew I didn’t want to be single forever. However, there was slight problem with my plan… I didn’t have a single suitor at the time.
Well, I turned 32 this month, and guess what? I’m not remarried, and I still don’t have suitors lining up at my door. But that’s ok. Whether or not God has marriage in my future, I am spending my 32nd year being pursed by and falling in love with the Maker of my heart. No one knows me more intimately, and no one will ever be a more faithful companion. To be honest, I can’t think of a better courtship.
