Hi! Remember me? I know it’s been a while, but I’m still here! God has had me on quite the journey in this preparation process for the World Race! We’re less than 3 weeks away from launching on this kingdom journey. I’m really excited and can’t believe the time is nearly here. For a while, it’s kind of seemed like only a dream, but nope…it’s real! I’ve finished working, enjoyed thanksgiving, a wonderful gift of a vacation, and now it’s the final stretch!
This journey has been one of growing into a much deeper dependence on God, learning more about who He is, learning more about who I am as He sees me, and learning just how He wants to display His life, love, truth and power through me. Some might say applying for the World Race is enough of an extreme, but God has been showing me how He’s desired me to experience an even greater “extreme” every day. Surprise, surprise! Life isn’t what I thought it was about! haha There is an intense reality that He desires for me to live in that has nothing to do with the race, but often I’m quick to dismiss it with my ability to be so self sufficient. Sure, I had a decent job that I enjoyed and a house and friends and a family that loves me…yet something in me was unsettled. What if there’s more? My greatest ideas of success, sufficiency, and fulfillment don’t even come close to what my Father dreams and desires for me. (Eph 3:20)
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
Just what does that mean?? This is my new reality. Journeying on the World Race will not resolve the unsettled feeling in my heart in and of itself because it’s only a program. However, what is true and different of this “program” is that it is a tool through which I am already experiencing a new depth in my relationship with God that will not disappoint. The riches and fulfillment come through the strengthening and deepening in my relationship with Jesus Christ, not in the method by which it is strengthened or deepened. I feel as though I often get this backwards. Always looking for something to do or experience that will take me where I want to be. Instead, it’s found in Jesus Christ Himself. I have come to a place where I honestly want nothing more than to live in the intimacy, adventure, joy, and peace that comes with this reality of living in “extreme” dependence on Christ. We hold on to things so tightly as though we have control and know what’s best…or possibly we know God could do greater things, but we’d rather settle for what we can “control” because it’s more comfortable. Ouch! I know, sorry, but The Lord will help you work through that one.
I’m convinced that the only way I’m going to experience the fullness that Jesus offers and see things happen that could only have been orchestrated by God are if I put myself in a place of complete dependence on Him. I don’t want to settle…on any level. I’m excited to see just how this will play out over the next year!
You ready for this?!
