It has been a couple months since I have updated you all, and as most of you know I am home now! My last months in Mongolia and China were some of the best ones that I had over the past year. But instead of writing those details I will leave the invitation open for you to actually call or meet up with me and ask questions to your hearts desire. On that note, THANK YOU for all the incoming support and love. It has been such a blessing to come back to such an amazing welcoming and if I haven’t responded to you yet, I promise I will.
For now I am just taking things one day at a time. I have been through reentry before, but this time it is a lot harder then I recall and for multiple reasons I am sure. The hardest part might be that I was not prepared to struggle with the obstacles facing me. Coming home is almost like leaving one battlefield for another. But now everything is different so I have to change my tactics and seek a different shelter.
Home feels weird, and that is weird. As anyone who spends a lot of time travelling or wanderlust could describe, everything becomes a bit surreal. The food you craved a month ago is the one making you vomit in your bathroom now. Thankfully the water runs here and convenience is everywhere. But there is something still missing and then I come to grasp the fearful truth that… nowhere is home. My heart has been sprinkled around the globe for almost a year and now I am here trying to do the same thing but I am exhausted.
And it is a good kind of tired. The kind that lets you know you fought well and that you are still on the right track. The kind of trial that is a promise of strength to come. Except now my army is also dispersed around the world. The people I loved and hated all the same were still my fellow soldiers, brothers and sisters that saw the best and worst of me daily. Regardless of everything else E Squad was a group of like minded individuals on the same mission as I was. We were a driving force.
America is different. The people you thought would be there are not always, things move fast but for often superficial reasons and there is a whole lot of people living for themselves. It is like survival of the fittest, but I had adjusted to one for all and all for one. I am sharing this all simply out of a place of humility. To share that life is full of ups and downs and that both are totally ok.
So there you have it, I have had better days. But the best is yet to come. I hope all of you are currently experiencing one of your best days yet. If you aren’t though, you definitely are not alone and hard times are something to be thankful for as well because they sharpen our character. This morning a friend reminded me if you hear your name called and no one is there, it might just be God. He calls us by our name. When you are chasing after dreams and days and memories but grow tired, remember your calling. Stand firm in who you are and what you want because He is still there. Cheers to all of you and to an awesome summer! I have some new dreams and plans of my own that I will be sharing soon so stay tuned and keep running full speed ahead after yours.
