With launch merely two weeks away I have had many people approach me about subject of fear. Am I afraid of going? Of the potential dangers that could be awaiting me? And my answer has never changed. I am very much aware of the risks, but I have no fear. And quite possibly against my family’s wishes, I have always been this way. Fearless. This hasn’t always been easy and it took me many years to wrestle this energy into something productive and positive. At one point in my life it led me to make often unwise and selfish decisions. Simply put it can be dangerous. With time I came to realize it is only ok to walk fearlessly like this if you are walking in Christ. And it took me a long time to find Him too, but thankfully that is why we have grace.
But back to my point, the bible says not to be scared about 365 times. That’s right, basically enough for every day of the year. So there are some things that I have to continually pray for strength about in order to maintain focus and keep my eyes aligned on God’s will and vision for my life. I know I am approaching times of abandonment and brokenness. I know that the shoes I am filling can involve dangers that I wouldn’t encounter in the comfort of my home. But you know what really scares me? The fact that there are thousands of little kids out there that haven’t had a meal in days. Or that there are hundreds of woman and children who will be sold as slaves tonight because we aren’t stepping out to stop human trafficking. That is what scares me. Awareness is great, but action is greater and that is where I plan to step in. Being uncomfortable, feeling lonely, and inviting my life to be changed in possibly drastic ways, to me these are just inevitable.
Change is all around us. It will find each and every one of you at some point, for better or worse. So the only difference really is that I am stepping out to find it. To welcome it. All I have is my will and my body, which thankfully, is physically capable of venturing out into this world. As Christians we have to realize that you could be someones one and only encounter that they ever have with God. So I am going to go out and spread light and hope to places that might have never seen it. And I am not doing it for anything other then the fact that it is what we are called to do, it was never meant to be an option.
So thank you all again for your love and support. It truly means the world to me. Sooner then later I am going to thrive very much on the encouragement and words of you guys to push me through the days of hardship. I also appreciate any and all your concerns and feedback. To sum this all up I am going to leave you with one of my favorite quotes, “Just remember this, Jesus promised his disciples three things, that they would be completely fearless, absurdly happy, and in constant trouble.”
