Dear Anonymous,
I have never been one to hide my flaws and weaknesses so let me tell you fundraising is a very daunting subject for me. I like to be the provider and the giver. Nothing makes me happier then to be able to help other people and act selflessly. So after I got over the mental block and realized that I cannot do this mission alone it became a process I am learning to love.
I am not one person, but a fellowship full of amazing family and friends. My biggest worry day by day is the fear of abandonment and being alone. But one by one each and every person in my life just amazes me with the overwhelming support I have been shown. I feel more loved then ever and am seeing that although I am leaving for almost a year, I have created bonds and relationships in my life that cannot even begin to be broken by any distance this world can create.
I have started loving the fundraising aspect of the trip because I have seen that it is so much more then asking people to donate to an amazing cause, which is already incredible itself. But it has given me the chance to connect and grow with the people around me on a whole new level. I have been able to pour my heart out in letters, call people and tell them how amazing they are, and to just reach out and love more then ever before.
This, however, is also where I ran into another obstacle. Some people have chose to support me anonymously and it sent me into quite a frenzy. How can I thank them? How can I tell them that without their charity I would not be a missionary at all?! I started to panic. With tears of joy in my eyes that is when it hit me that there are angels in this world! There are angels out there and I don’t know even who they are!
But you know what, that’s ok too and it’s all part of the big plan. You have chosen not to need a personal thank you from me but you are a blessing in disguise. Because now I have a flame burning in me to tell people around me every chance I get that God’s messengers are living right beside us here on earth every day. There are guardians guiding us and believing that bold love still exists… that revival can and will happen.
So this one is for you Anonymous. I hope that you know you are making an impact on this world and that I thank you with my whole heart. And don’t worry, I am letting everyone know that you are my heroes. Anonymous, whoever you are… I pray that you are always surrounded by love and grace and may the sun always be on your shoulders.
Thank you,
Kristin
