Training camp is now coming to a close. It has been an amazing five days and I am really looking forward to the next few days. The first few days of camp were very intense. They broke us down to build us back up. There were many days filled with tears and learning about what it was to be a missionary. Our first night was about letting go of what we were expecting. Which for me was not something I really had to deal with. The next few days were about letting go of our grief. This was important to me. I learned that there are many things that I still have not dealt with in my life. Once we started writing our grief journals it was easier to see what I needed to deal with in my life. I was so thankful for chance to understand more what I need to deal with in my life.
There was a night were we slept outside and it was raining. It was a great chance to experience what was going to be happening to us on a regular basis on the field. It was a chance to work as a team, and learn what everyone does well in and what we need help to do. Once we were left by the leadership for the night and the rain stopped we gathered as a team to bond, worship. It is one of the best memories from camp.
The next day was about our grief. Writing a grief journal was never something I thought of, but it was amazingly helpful. I found out that things have hurt me that I had no idea that had. I now feel better that I have given up things that have been holding me back.
The next day was about finding the people that we work best with. It was great to start building teams after so many days of being sad.
That night was about the Holy Spirit working. That night was filled with tears of people crying out for more of God, but through the tears came laughter. One person was filled with the Holy Spirit and he was laughing so hard that he could not breath or sit up. Just looking at him was enough to start laughing. He asked if we wanted to hold his hand and so about six of us all linked hands and we too started laughing to the point we couldn’t breath. It was amazing. Once prayer time was over we all let go of our hands and they were tingling. I couldn’t believe I could feel the Holy Spirit pulsing through me.
This camp has taught me to let God out of the box – He is not limited to anything we think of Him. It has been a life changing experience and I hope that once home that I can live out that experience.
