18 days left of my World Race and if I’m honest, I’m done. I’m so ready to be home. I can’t wait to hug my best friend, eat my favorite foods, and sleep in a bed in a room with air conditioning. I’m beyond excited to attend Elevation, play with my nieces and nephews, and go camping with my parents. I want to sit on the couch watching movies all day with Jill. I’m ready!
Every morning I wake up, look at the date, and say ok…___more days. I promised myself I wouldn’t get into countdown mode. I said I’d stay present and put my all into ministry. But that's easier said than done. For the past 10 months, I’ve done my best to pour into the people around me, serve with all my heart, and chase hard after what God wants me to learn. I can’t say I’ve done the best at that this month.
This morning while talking to my friend Jamie over coffee I felt like God told me it was ok though. It’s ok that I’m feeling this way. It’s ok to desire the things to come. It’s ok that month 11 looks different than month 1 did.
Maybe, this month is meant to be spent focusing on myself, processing everything I’ve learned in the past 10 months, and preparing for what’s next. There is a time and season for everything. There is a season to press in hard and give all of myself but also a season to step back and focus on myself. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m doing my best to choose joy when I want to peace out and go home. I’m seeking God daily and asking Him the hard questions. I'm processing what I've just experienced and prepping for life in the States. I’m going to enjoy the time I have left with these people and this beautiful place. See you in 18 days America!
