Lately I’ve been struggling with the thought of leaving Charlotte. As of yesterday, I have a month and a half left in Charlotte and two months until launch. I’ve found myself lately in constant countdown mode.
Only a month and a half left at Elevation
Only a little over 1 week until training camp
Only a month and a half left to spend time with my charlotte friends
Only a month and a half left with GIVE FIFTY ONE
All of this breaks my heart. I find myself in tears if I focus on it for too long and that’s just the thought of leaving Charlotte. I haven’t let myself think about leaving my parents. I haven’t let myself think about not seeing my nieces and nephews for 11 months. I haven’t let myself think about not talking to my cousin Jill several times a week.
This weekend as I thought about the time left before the race, I felt God gently say “stop focusing on the calendar, live in the moment”. I don’t want to spend my last weeks in the U. S. dwelling on the fact that I’m leaving. I want to enjoy every minute I have before I launch. I want to make more memories than I could imagine.
I’m leaving for a short time, not forever. Time is flying by now so I can only imagine how fast these 11 months will go. Before I know it, I’ll be back at Elevation, back with my GIVE FIFTY ONE crew, back to talking to Jill all the time, and back to visiting my family in Indiana, but this time I’ll be missing people all over the Earth. I’ll be missing the race.
So for now, I’m going to enjoy the time God has given me with the amazing people in my life. I’m going to stop focusing on the calendar and start living in the moment.
Thank you to everyone who has been so encouraging. Thank you for your support and prayers. Please pray that I will live in the moment. Pray for my squad mates and I as we head to Training Camp July 14th. Thanks for following along on this crazy journey.
Heart and Soul,
Kristi
