So I’ve been MIA for a while, but I’m back!
The last week or so the reality of this adventure has really started to set in, and it’s been a little (and by little I mean A LOT) overwhelming. I met with a guy from my squad, got some of my gear, and I am planning a camping trip with some of the ladies on my squad. We also found out recently that the dates for our training camp have been set for October 11th-18th!! As excited as I am about this opportunity to serve, share, and grow (and I really am excited!), I am also incredibly nervous about leaving everything that has become familiar, normal, and comfortable to me over the last 24 years of my life. I know that God is going to stretch me and completely change me as I prepare to hit the field and especially once I get there.
It’s going to be uncomfortable living in such close community with people I will barely know. I’m excited to be transformed, but I am also scared. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am going to cry, probably a lot. I am going to cry happy tears, sad tears, hurting tears, homesick tears, all of it. It’s ok though, because it’s worth it. It’s not about me or my comfort, it’s about the kingdom, and serving my creator. It’s hard to stay focused on that when I keep thinking of all the reasons the race isn’t actually for me, and what I’ll be leaving behind when I go. I know, though, that “the Son of Man came not to be served, but to serve” (Mark 10:45), I believe that I am also here to serve and to be sent, so that is the call I am following.
I am so excited to have so many of y’all joining me on this journey.
Thank you for letting me share a little bit of my heart with you tonight.
Kourtney
