Have you ever noticed that when you start to take a stand and do something for God, it seems as if Satan throws literally everything he can to detour you and keep your heart from reaching that fulfillment God has waiting for you?
That has been me the last two weeks, but nevertheless, I am keeping my eyes focused on Jesus, and in this crazy, sinful, life full of distractions, that is what we have to do! Its so mind blowing to me how much I have learned and drawn closer to the Lord because of all these things coming my way.
It all started when I was typing up my support letters, not only did my printer break, but all of a sudden my flash drive no longer has enough memory for my letters so I cannot go print them elsewhere. Later that night/early morning, I woke up with the stomach flu. Coincidence? I think not.
I was hunched over the toilet vomiting and a voice spoke to me telling me that if I went on this trip, I would get sick and be in pain. The voice continued to ask me, in the most mocking way possible, what I was going to do without my mommy. I knew right away that was not the voice of God but I began to dwell on it anyway, and it scared me!
Meanwhile, while my printer is broken and I am sick, my doctor is not giving me the okay to go on this trip (I had to have a medical release form filled out in order to be sent out on the mission field). Talk about stressful but through it all I found joy in the Lord and knew that He had birthed this passion into me that nobody or no thing could ever take away! While seeking Him, He began to draw near to me and give me a new love and happiness for life!
I had been wondering the past couple days what the devil was going to try and throw at me next; my letters are printed out and waiting to be mailed (waiting on the go-ahead from my doctor), I am no longer sick and rebuked what the devil had tried to scare me with, so what could possibly come next? Of course Satan had to take things up a notch. For he knew I am no longer easily shaken. This morning I crashed my car. Not too bad, but it did just enough damage that I have to postpone saving up for the race. I sat back as my dad was working on my car and just worshiped God and His greatness! How awesome that He is calling me to something so great that Satan is doing everything in his power to take me out! Just thinking about it makes me giggle. Silly devil, you will never win!
After a crazy morning with my car, my doctor called and gave me the okay to go on my trip! Hallelujah! What started as a crazy day turned out to be awesome!
As I sit here typing, I am reminded of the story in Matthew 9 about the woman who pushed through crowd to touch the hem of Jesus’ garment. My circumstance is a bit different from hers, but yet so similar! She pushed past everything that was in her way to get to Jesus. She could have easily said the crowd was too big and that it would be too difficult to reach him, but she pushed, and crawled, and did whatever it took just to touch him! As soon as she touched him, the bible says, she was healed!
Our lives can be so chaotic and messy, but if we fight through it and push and crawl, and get desperate for Jesus like the lady in the story, imagine what He can do in our lives! His love can make you new with one touch and give you a joy through all of life’s daily troubles.
