Phillippians 4:12
“Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.
God works in funny ways.
I find that the more I fight my flesh and release things to Him and start to come to terms with what I think He has for me – The more He pours out His unending love quite tangibly in my life.
About two weeks ago, I was really stressed out about funding. The enemy was attacking me at my Achilles Heel. Doubts began flooding my mind.
Am I supposed to be going on this trip? Is He actually going to provide? Is this what He truly called me towards? How in the world am I going to fundraise $15,000?
As the week progressed, I began to come to terms with the fact that I might not be able to go on the trip. I was trying to embrace Phillippians 4:6 and 4:12. BUT, in the midst of “embracing” that scripture, I was failing to be faithful and rely on Him to come through. Kind of ironic, right? Satan was simply using that scripture to manipulate my thinking.
The week began to come to a close. I was sending out support letters, making fundraising calls, scheduling photoshoots, etc. I was trying to do all of this by myself and I was struggling to give it up to the only person that could truly do it.
Then I read an article on fundraising for The World Race. It was all about how fundraising isn’t meant to be this huge angst filled, stress ridden process. It should be a process that is truly glorifying to Him. A process that builds your character, your faith, and your love for Him.
So, I began to embrace that. I began to worship and praise Him for what He was going to do, in faithful and joyful expectance.
A day later – I had 4 shoots booked, totaling out to $1,250. I had people buy prints, totaling out to upwards of $600. I had someone knock on my door and give me a $200 check. And after I was finished crying because of the $200 check, I checked my e-mail – In my inbox, was an email saying that someone had donated $100.
Throughout this insane day, I kept on hearing God say, “Kole… I’ve got you.“
God is absolutely and undeniably faithful. Feeling Him pour out His love on me, tangibly, has me in awe.
I love following Jesus, its such an adventure.
